Remember when I told you guys that I was struggling with depression? Well, now I want to let you all know that I am doing really well. I am happy, and content, and feeling really good most of the time. It feels fantastic.
I thought you might be curious, but I also thought that there might be some of you out there who are struggling but don't know how to seek help or are afraid of what medication will make them.
I was honestly terrified of what antidepressants would turn me in to. Would I be a zombie, would I be lackluster, would I gain a ton of weight, would I act like someone else or be someone else? That is the tricky thing about depression - nothing is clear and everything seems overwhelming and complicated. At least, that is how it was for me.
And yet, here I am feeling more like myself than I have in years and on an antidepressant. On the exact thing I was so convinced would ruin me, make me weak, and riddle my life with side effects. Nothing, nothing has been awful, and the side effects have been minimal if not nonexistent. But it has given me an ability to step back and reason with situations, the ability to calm irrational panic, the ability to hush quick anger and address my emotions.
Medications may not be the best thing for everyone, but, for me, they have really been helpful in bringing me back to the person I once was.